LOSE YOURSELF from UNKILLABLE ANGEL by Ada Rook

opening my eyes for the first time in years
i cannot believe all the loss
all the awful grey
im not here
where am i? where is this?
suddenly older, less alive
panicking so far away
barely a lifesign

does anyone believe what i am waking up from?
faces turn like leaves and then they're gone

lose yourself and dont ever look back
i won't be here
everyone wants an idol
get lost, i don't need you
when i was stupid and young
i only wanted to be cared for
bare your heart to whoever will say that ur so real
but i know what you really are.

i thought i was growing
because i stopped myself from flinching at anger
so i wouldnt make it worse
i cant believe i never saw it right in front of me
i thought i was becoming a better person

does nobody see whats happening?
i cant say anything
when you lashed out you killed a part of me

and the sun comes up in a violent arc
no matter where i go

the memory of leaving the city
all i want
a new life
receding
where did all this go wrong?

what the fuck

lose yourself and dont ever look back
i wont be here
everyone wants an idol
get lost, i don't need you
when i was stupid and young
i only wanted to be cared for
bare your heart to whoever will say that you're so real
but i know what you really are.

• Electronic
• ambient
• concrete
• industrial
• Vancouver