Inner Struggle from PEACE 2.0 by alexsmind

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I thought that I could get out there and hustle
But it is hard when you have a fucking inner struggle
You’re tired of it all tired of this shit
Got to take some drugs just to stay in it, somehow

It’s hard to even get out of bed in the morning
I don’t even have a fucking reason to be mourning,
Still having nightmares that take me over,
Reminding me the trauma’s never over,
I’m blessed to be in a position to have food and shelter,
But I still can’t seem to get up and help her,
It’s a struggle every to just do basic needs,
I have to get help for my stupid deeds,
I’ve done so much shit I’m like a human petri dish,
Trying to shut up the thoughts of this mental bitch,
I probably fucked myself so much that nothing works anymore,
I just do my best even though I’m fucking poor,
I just hope whoever hears this don’t go through what I do,
And if you do, just keep holding on to what is you,
This shit is hard and you’re not the only one,
Just keep searching and maybe someday it will be done,
But for now…

2x
I thought that I could get out there and hustle
But it is hard when you have a fucking inner struggle
You’re tired of it all tired of this shit
Got to take some drugs just to stay in it, somehow

• Experimental
• ambient
• lofi
• metal
• noise
• shoegaze
• Gainesville