Improvised Depression from Weirdo Music by Citywits

I had been working on the guitars for this for ages, I have probably 3-4 alternate versions and attempts at just getting the guitars situated. then I was having a pretty rough time at work & with health & so on, and in my depression I sat down and sang this 7 minute song. later I went back and overdubbed/added backing and doubling but the main vocal on this song is a single take, fully improvised. kinda sounds like Im gonna cry at a couple points, which is a former long black hair, emo little scene boys bread and butter.

Tracklist

10.	Improvised Depression	6:44

Lyrics

Something that makes you think or makes you laugh
I don't know what it'll be
But it'll occur to me somewhere along the line as long as I don't get sidetracked
I don't forget
And start to focus on the things that I can't get out of my mind I don't
Really know
What im supposed to do
But I do notice you and that you're
Making the effort to change
Ill do the same
I respect the game you played, the way you made me look a fool
But in the best way
Now its my turn to put my money where my mouth is even though I got no money at all
But its alright
It'll be okay
I just let all this stuff get to me so badly
I can't really turn off the part of my brain
That's obsessed, obserssed with being right
But only when im right
Im not going to try to just say its all correct, I actually care if it is true
But no one else does
They kinda wanna fuck with you over petty things
They wanna make you play their game well, im stepping in
I don't want to get lost
But I can't be a door mat
Not for these people, not for anyone else
I guess its alright
I guess its okay
I guess all things come to an end anyway
And my life is good, the people around me care
I think that makes all the difference in it
Its alright, just gonna have to find another way to live out my hopes and dreams and find a way to hope that I can support us both
I swear ill try
But im trying now
But im just in my own way all the time, I am my own, worst enemy
But im also my best friend, best friends I guess
If you're a "glass is half full" kind of person
I wish I was
The problem is whenever I look at the glass its fucking empty
So does that make me a cynic or am I realist? And what’s the difference? And who cares? I just am the way I am, if I could change it I would
So wouldn’t we all?
I guess its just part of the whole fuckin thing I don’t know

Didn’t realize that I had left it on didn’t realize i was being watched and looked in on by the world
But oh well what can you do?
This kinda thing just happens and as the time goes on it seems more acceptable to just fuck
Fuck people over
Its their fault that you could
I mean I guess that’s what it is? I mean look around.
Look how shit is
Tell me that this is the the way the founders envisioned it, this is the way they thought America would

Yeah...I don’t think they did
I don’t think they were thinking, people would be on the streets living, and not like one or two but like….a fuckin lot.
And some of them are people who didn’t burn every bridge to get there
Some of them tried and got eaten by the system kinda just like how its designed to be

And fuck healthcare companies seriously

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from Weirdo Music, released May 11, 2025

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