chameleon from s/t by computer fan hum

he was sitting waiting for something,
something he hadn't been before.
but boys dont cry
constantly in a state of not being
real enough to his own self.
but boys dont cry
rubble upon rubble covers it all
he could live his own life without
doing shit at all
but boys dont cry
the sweet sunshine could cheer him up
or maybe a world where he never had to bear his own guts
but boys don't cry

a cozy blanket covered in tears
why should i have to even try at all
he's handsome he's brave and he shouldn't be whining
instead he wants to break free from this alignment
pray to the sun or whatever mythology
it won't change a thing
unless he tries to do something on his own
a pillow now soaked for no reason
other than to wallow in pity

hide, they might realize
because girls can cry
hide, they might realize
because boys don't cry
hide, they might realize
because girls can cry
her voice quivers in shame,
it will never be the same
he won't be the same, again
lines will be drawn, you will always be a clone, an ugly man

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