Complicated Life from Subversive Ciphers by The Mighty Rhino

Yo, I'm a motherfuckin fat person! I've been that way from time. I never really lost weight because I hate the gym unless I'm on the treadmill bumping awesome rap, and then I just get distracted and lost in that.
I'd probably make at least some progress with ease if I stopped eating pasta and chocolate and cheese, and mostly ate kale, but then that would take away a lot of pleasure out of living from the day-to-day.
I know GooDIE M.O.B. got the song, "God, I wanna live to be an old man..." but God probably got His own plan. I just don't wanna go from being such a stupid brougham I couldn't switch spinach in for smoked ham.
So I feel pressure when I choose my food, but the Bahá'í say Kam kam. Ruz bih ruz. Little by little, step by step, and it's true! And no shame to my fat homies, do what's best for you!

It's a complicated life that we got to live,
Cause we’re honest and we're bright and got love to give.
We wanna get it right, and this life is hard,
But this complicated life is ours.

I got bipolar, Asperger's, OCD. Think I'm a let it keep me down, and I won't be me?
No word of a lie, certain times I'm surprised I ain't dead, so much suicidal thoughts been in my dang head. Feel like every night I be crying more tears. Tryna find a job, first time in four years and plus, right around the 11th of September, I had a breakdown. Reckoned I would never get better ‘til I called up my good friends, Esther and Sam, and they reminded me that they love me just as I am.
And that's some CRUCIAL! MOTHERFUCKIN SHIT TO HEAR! when you're manic-depressive and at the brink or near!
So I brightened up. Said to life, "so what?" Now I'm sitting here, rapping on the mic and stuff.
To all my people who be searching for a brighter day: I'm your brother in the struggle, hope you find your way.

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I want to take a little moment for my people who are LGBTQ. I'll tell you right now, we see you!
Me? I'm just a straight observer, but I want to help you end the system that holds you down, I hope you take it further!
The work of emancipation, that is, and God loves you! He'll help you turn your pain into bliss! I hope you trust He doesn't need you to change, that He made you that way, so take heart and keep peace in your brains!
And that goes for people of colour as well. It's all the way fucked up that you're stuck in this hell.
And I know I play my part in it too – I'm a white cis man. Implicated, but I promise it's true that none of those of us who love you will ever give up trying to shower you with blessings when you're vexed in a rut. This is your world the same as it's mine.
I know it's complicated out there, but we gonna make a breakthrough in time!

• Hip-Hop/Rap
• OCD
• aspergers
• bipolar
• boom bap
• conscious hip-hop
• disability
• health
• lgbtq
• mental health
• nerdcore hip-hop
• rap
• underground hip-hop
• whiteness
• Ottawa