Disabled from Technopagan by Electromancy
In 2018 I fell sick and I never got better. This is about my struggle with chronic illness. All the music is played by robots I custom built to keep making music while disabled.
I hope this track can shed some light on the experiences of people struggling with invisible disability, and help make those going through the same feel they are not alone.
Tracklist
| 4. | Disabled | 4:29 |
Lyrics
A recurring sense of grief
A passing of myself
Pushing my physical limits
To face daily life
Detached from my body
Dissociated, numb
My body keeps me safe from the physical pain of being
By turning off
Disability brings a repeated grief for oneself
There is no reason why
This is no one’s fault
There is nothing you could’ve done
This suffering just is
Again and again
Further
My frail body is the ultimate teacher
Stripped down to the core of myself
By grieving away the parts of me
I can hold no more
When you can no longer do the things you considered you
What are you now?
When you can do nothing,
What is your value?
Intrinsic and infinite
Yet we live in a world with a fetish for definition
You can only be
And that is beautiful
Full of awe
Powerful enough to crush any other notion
I am 29 years old
And I am prepared to be old,
Wise,
And next to death
Credits
License
CC BY-NC-ND 3.0. See the Creative Commons website for details.Tags
@RobotMetalBand
Metal composed by human, played by physical robots. In 2018 Steph became disabled & chronically ill. Instead of quitting music, they built robots to play instruments for them. This is the result. Electromancy, the robot metal band.