Oleander by Irrelevant Joke

I've been in a lull
There's an itch inside my skull and it can't be reached
I remind myself not to think too much
It makes thinking seem meaningless and I hardly think that I mean this

Giving in to indifference and giving out from ignorance
Slowly losing all interest slowly losing anything
Sinking where it's shallow I pick a fight with my shadow
I know things are more easily seen from edges
Let the moon fill my head levitate above my bed
And then waking up alone again
Find a place where nothing matters step on landmines stare daggers
Into empty space watch the hours go to waste
There's cancer in those bones there's my heart in the dirt
I'm going to get just what I deserve and swallow hard against it

By now I should know wanting something doesn't make it so nothing's going to grow without a seed to start I missed my mark being scared of the dark instinctual false alarms I swoon when I see trees glowing from street lights at night but I keep these moments quiet this life is a string and I can't tie it because I'm too tired

I can't tie it I'm too tired

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