Confessional from Pillars by Isonomist

Tell me what is real/ is it the ghost inside my head/ that tells me every little thing I need/ to contradict myself/ am I even here cause I know I've lost control/ I can feel dissonance between my mind, body, and soul/ I am so confident that I'm alive/ despite feeling so dead inside/ but who am i/ to say what I think/ when it's more than just me for whom I speak
Honest as can be/ I've been losing my grip/worried that you'll see/something different in me like I do in myself/ I need help someone please
I can't get myself to cooperate/ I see what I need but I can't think straight
Filled with excuses of why I can't help myself/ and bullshit reasons of why I can't rely on someone else/why can't I just admit I could use the help/ instead of keeping all this to myself
Fighting nurture everyday/ it's been ingrained not to say/ what makes me afraid/ and now I'm so scared of myself/ I hate this/ I hate me
Bury it deep/ swallow/ choke it down/swallow/ don't make a sound/ you'll only be ridiculed and put away/and in that box is where you'll stay
Swallow (your fears)/swallow (the truth)/ swallow (the years)/ swallow (the pills)/ swallow/ swallow
To cure what ails my aching soul/ I must abandon all hope
Tell me what is real/ when the voice never really dies/ and it tells me all I've done was just a waste of time/ I need to feel release/ so I self-destuct again/ not knowing what to say /when confronted by my friends/ tell me what is real/ when I know what I need/ but just can't find the strength/ to save me from me

• Metal
• Temple