jellyfish from bed rotting by Jai Mohan

i haven't been sleeping around like i used to
haven't had a sex drive at all
my body was a temple, now it's a tomb
or a crumbling suburban mall

i've been hallucinating alone in my room
silver running down the walls
jellyfish swimming through the kitchen
what is large appears small

i haven't been sleeping, anyway
(i haven't touched myself in a while)
i haven't been sleeping
(my lovers are long distance)
ask me what my hopes and dreams are
(i don't know how to explain)
well, i haven't been dreaming
(and nobody knows how to listen)

it's been weeks since i pulled a tarot card
(i'd die for an hour of silence)
it's been months since i looked up at the stars
(i'd die for just about anything)

(but i can't let it win, so instead i sing)

• Alternative
• classical crossover
• indie pop
• queer
• singer-songwriter
• vocal
• New York