anima by zoltar

the waiting game's begun

so i can't talk a lot

she's got it figured out

while i'm left in the dark

there's no escaping me

i'm bound to my own fears
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cause this is who i am

i've been like this for years

do you think that i'll change?
'cause i'm so scared i won't
i know it's up to me
but i can't be on my own
affliction takes ahold
and punctures through my face
i wanna hide my soul
but i can't erase mistakes

dysregulation in the dome

disadvantaged and alone

nobody ever checks on me

cause they know i'm out of hope

why do i take up this space?

i'm not worthy, i'm afraid

how can i make it more clear that

i'm never really okay?

right from the start, i was a mess

there was no saving me

i took it all straight to the heart

now i've got jealousy

the greenest eyes you've ever seen

staring carefully

i'm sorry that i'm not that strong

my heart forsakens thee

uncertainty has guaranteed my futility

i'm like a tree stuck in the dark

suffering and steep

and while i'm stuck behind a screen

there's no agency

i've come to realize i'm not free

there is no release

i came on too strong

but how is that wrong?

i can't help it if i have a heart

that's full of love

fuck what they all say

i'm borderline insane

i wouldn't get close to me

if i were you, i'd run away

i'm a liability

i burden those close to me

don't you ever feel like you're the

only one who's lost at sea?

reading all your messages

feel the sting inside my chest

pace around my room until i

write off every word you said

even if i was found dead

i'd hope that you won't regret

everything you never said

i don't want that in your head

at the end of the day

i still care about you

regardless of our statuses

i know you'll find truth

the boundaries we put in place

will keep us en route

we all change, but honestly

we can't forget our roots

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