UNFEELING from CICADA* by monikrr

you know i lie to myself to keep awake at night
cos sleep is for pussies or maybe i’m just scared to dream about you again
i don’t know
i can’t stand how much it’s hurting me but fuck if i’ll let anything change
cook myself dinner then let it rot on the counter
the bugs need it more than me
if i can feed a million then why should i feed one?

i think we could’ve made it
but i’ve been so frustrated with
every second that passes by
it’s the little things that keep me alive
so, don’t blow it out of proportion
cos my words, they come in motion
i’ll get back to you with some time
just please stand by my side for a moment

what am i running from?
my legs start to crack like knuckles on a brick wall
and it’s so hard to stay afloat when the
tides keep trying to pull us under
maybe i’m too scared to be alone

i know that i only have a day to make things right
but i’m dead wrong in every way
so cut me off, avoid my name
i’m bleeding out, but that’s okay
that’s okay

another empty thought fills the clouded sky
as i sing the song of a thousand speckled lights
counting down the seconds til it’s too late
it’s the final hour before i hit the breaks

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