bunny blood by Neurotics

{CW: lyrics about depression, suicide, self-harm, McCafferty, and sexual assault/rape}

a loose concept album about the ending of a relationship that meant a lot to me, a bad thing that happened to me in an elementary school bathroom, and being the human emotional equivalent of that fucked-up garfield knockoff plushie on amazon. you know the one.

some bad things have happened to me in the brief time i spent alive, but it's not like i didn't deserve any of it. it's funny, at the beginning of this year, i already knew how this year would end. good things will never last and nobody's here to help, and that's okay. i've come to terms with that fact and i have stopped waiting and trying to make things better and just come to terms with the hand life dealt me. not that it was a horrible life, not by any means. i don't want to come off as ungrateful for the good things that have happened to me, but you get what i mean. as of the time of typing this, it is the 22nd of november. three days until my final birthday. i was thinking of just sleeping in. this is starting to sound melodramatic as fuck. all of my poorly-made actions and half-baked song ideas will be my stupid little epitaph. feel free to spit on my grave if you ever find it. it'll give you good luck.

dedicated for nobody in particular. except for the same people all my songs are for.

if you're listening to this, thank you.

it really means a lot to me.

:)

(edit: 5/16/22)
unfortunately, i lived. lyrics have been changed to not show a person's deadname. i'm still somewhat proud of this album, but i kinda hate reading back the lyrics i wrote. probably the most bitter lyrics i've ever publically released lmao. if you still listen to this album (for whatever reason, but it sure as hell can't be for quality lol), i appreciate you and i love you. we are our own bleeding angels.

- sarah

dead monument
2019 - 2021